being a parent is tough enough. being a parent to more than one special child is tougher. and being a parent to children with special needs who are also spaced apart by years too many, is a rare and rough patch in life which just won’t settle anywhere.

the pandemic has added to the frustration i already had. the lack of opportunities and facilities has added itself a new friend: lack of will.

i don’t know what it’s like on the other side of the world and i don’t want to know… what I do know is this:

there is nothing but angst and in that is the universe.

what I have been reading

love letters of nabokov to his wife vera. have been chronicling some. you can find them here:

what I have been looking at

my summer unfolding

also and always

kya karen

faiz Ahmed faiz

mirī tirī nigāh meñ

jo laakh intizār haiñ

rendered here

Meri Teri Nigaah Mein